What's your limit?

There are many things in life that you want. Such as money, reputation and so on.

But tell me, whenever you get those things, isn't there something in exchange instead?

Money exchanges friendship
Reputation exchanges freedom

There is one thing that we could do to solve this. To limit ourselves.

Like i would limit myself from traveling?
Limit myself not to eat snacks?

Just lets take myself to the BMTC trip an example.

I will limit myself not to go as its expensive.
I will limit myself even though there is a sponsor.

I don't know if others knows about this but, there is nothing there to do. Only project.
The only thing you guys thinks about is a trip to China, a chance to play. Well come on, wake up.
You have no money to play there. Your GPA will not increase significantly. So what are you trying to prove?

Having a more pretty Resume?

In exchange for a trip, you exchange increase in GPA, exchange chance of earning more money while working and exchange of your own time for your relaxation.

Well, if your not capable of going there financially, don't go.

I will not say anything out, just that please wake up from your "paradise"

Nightmare routine

Once again, the magnificent Steiners appears again.

He once again overwhelmed the once cool guy and destroy the whole situations right again.

Is it good or bad?

Certainly is a mystery.

But the guy does know, that he is filled with regrets for not controlling Steiners.

*Magnificent Steiners is a character in an Anime : "Monster"

Sleep

Sleeps.

I can't sleep no matter how tired i am.

Things always surface up.

Think and think and think.

It's morning.

Time for school.

Journey to ?

Do you remembers the days before you came into OGLs?

Nostalgic isn't it?

I do remember bits of it. When i first came to poly, i had intended to had a fresh start. A fresh start which means that no more nightmares for school days. It happened. Yes, it all began when i first participated in Camp Eagle.

It was an event with many memories, the joys of meeting new people and the sweat we made together. It was good isn't it?

Then we had endured through the FMO days with harsh treatments (With good intentions (somehow)).

Yes we did endured through it, in fact we endured all the events that came by us. A fascinating feat i would say for everyone who understands.

Then comes AGM, commissioning and then the whole new event by EXCOs(including myself).

We started to learn about many many things. Being a leader, a mentor. Responsibility suddenly surge into your blood like you're born with it.

So in order to be in expectations, we have begun to search high and low, for methods which could make our future batch a superior ones. In fact, in the midst of doing it, we did not care about ourselves but only to nurture and nurture and nurture.

Consequences starts to float onto the surface, the pillars starts to succumb instead. -Boom Boom Boom...-

Many thoughts are coming through our head right now (well at least i am), what did i done to deserve this things from happening, what happen to them, why can't we had a peaceful days.

I am puzzled. You may feel strange. In fact for those i'm one of them who kept on finding for the truth behind all those problems i have (pardon for my complacency) and now i think i had come back. Where? Right back from the start.

Now that i had dig so many places all over the place. I do not know which one is the true gold mine. Which is it? Where is it? Why can't i find it?

Suspicion, Silence, Depression and Hatred found inside for who i ever blame was? Myself.

*The more things you know, the more you actually don't know.

-The truth hurts-

Let me recover for whom will become a great friend, a great companion and create a legacy.

Social Etiquette

Its just plain respect when someone greeted you or bid farewell and greet back isn't it?

Its just plain stupid.
Yes you had a bad day, everyone knows. Its all over that pretty face of yours.
But i just want to tell you something, whether your bad mood or not, life still goes on, so, just greet back and say goodbye, at least.

Well as what Jade says today to Eeling which i think its perfectly true.

"You said that yourself ah, nobody wants to know actually."

Although its said in a kidding way, if it you think in a normal basis. It's really true. It does apply to normal day, nobody really wants to know what happen to you.

Shut up, stop whining and get a life. A book title by Larry Winget. Pretty cool.

"The truth hurts"

-Larry Winget

"Humans unhappiness comes from not facing reality squarely, exactly as it is"

-Buddha

Determinations

I am weak.. i can't even stand long hours of work and not even squatting down for just a little while.

Today when i was working, i have often squat down and move things, i had this blood rush to my brain which really cause quite a pain to me every now and then. Hell it is, it just doesn't feel good.

My friend told me its because of fatigue. However, my boss said i'm weak.

Well i think both are correct. So from next week onwards, i shall not touch my computers after 12am.

If your a friend of mine, reading this. Please, remind me if i over used my computer. Thank you.

Little Puppy

Do you feel any hatred in your parents when they just yelled at you when you got home for doing something wrong or just commanded you to do things when you just got home?

I don't know about you, but i feel it.

I will give you a little bit more description.

Betty and Will are a lovely couple with kids at first, after a few strings of events, Betty feels that Will isn't that loving anymore, whenever he was back at home, he would just stare in the screen or just sleep without giving love and care to her and the kids, she felt frustrated.

A few months later, Betty just couldn't take it anymore and just spills everything out to Will when he got back home one day.

She told him that it's like everyday, Will just went to work and whenever he get in contact with foods, he would saves some leftovers in the plastic bag.

Betty and her kids would wait hungrily for Will to return so when he got home, he would gives the leftovers to them.

*The food refers to the love and concern.

Will totally understands what she said. However, Will just started to tell Betty why he does that.

Will refers himself as a puppy. As a puppy, it would always be love by everything besides it, like its parents or owner. However, one day, it got lost, it went through many obstacles.

Having almost being hit by a moving car, passing through thorns, being bullied by bigger dogs, finally, it reach its home.When it got right back in, the owner, instead of consoling it, the owner actually add salts to the wound and beat the hell out of it.

So right now, do you really know how Will's feel? I feel what he feels.

Lovely Sandwiches

-Waiting eagerly-

What am i waiting for? Of course I'm waiting for my lovely sandwiches! From my beloved and it takes time to make it alright.

Yesterday we went to shop in the shopping markets and bought the ingredients together, and today she had made it not only for me, but to many others too!

There is some who made some comments over it. Its a feedback yeah so darling don't you be sad or what! We improves by making failures alright. (:

Don't be crippled by the feedbacks! Made more! For me at least. =p

Maybe you guys will say what's the big fuss over a mere sandwiches, try getting someone you love to do it, i think you would be drown by sugar. Trust me.

Emotions

When some scenarios came into your life and hit it with such a big impact, it will go deep into the emotional you, the inner self. The inner self would tend to compare this scenarios to the one currently its having and see what's wrong about it, whether it can be improve or not.

This certainly is a good thing, however when the inner self gets so obsess about trying to improve that particular scenario, it became a nuisance. It will turn out that the event was moving so smoothly but because of the obsession of the inner self, without knowing, destroying the event with knowing that they had too, the same event going.

That's the emotions. Either you control it and make it a guidance or you let it run wild and destroy the path and allow you to experience what someone had went through before you.

I would like to thank that person who had taught me this theory, well, it isn't anyone fault, it is the emotions which affects so much about you that unknowingly you do things more than what you had expected it.

Humans are sensitive, try to keep that sense from a distance. As the saying goes " There is a thin line..."

It's Time

Things has turned ugly tonight.

Questions all over the air.

No convincing answers to any of it.

Everyone was frustrated.

"If there is a scenario like this, who is in the fault?" I asked my father.

"The leader. Why? He had allow him to manipulate him totally."

"Ask him who actually is the leader, if the another one is more like one, he should just give his place up."

"At the end of the day, ask why does he being manipulated first and analyze the problem."

This is the answer from a experienced leader who had gone through this kind of situation.

Dilemma

Crap it out or just shut it up. This is one dilemma which everyone in the world has it. Be it youth or adults. It's the communication which brings forward to the next level but a dangerous step to take.

It's just like playing a MMORPG, with a superb weapon on hand, however in order to bring it to the next level, you need some materials and some luck. If else fails, the weapon will be gone forever.

The weapon would well be consider the relationship between humans. If you successfully merge it, you will get a better understanding with each other. If fails, you will get nothing and relationship with you and him will turns ugly.

Conclusion, bring forward or just give it up?

Take risks or cautious?

Blood Boiled

Fustration and the frequent changes had made me walk out of that campus without any good memories.

Everyone is trying to make it the best and i know, but we should be more firm on some things. Wouldn't you be fustrated if you receive a order which kept changing? It'll be a neverending of efforts but only a simple achievement. It's not worth it.

Maybe he is right, for not having to say his words correctly, but hell.. i was there trying to concern someone which i receives something like this.. It's like telling your mom the truth and being reprimanded for telling the truth you know? It would be a deep scar no matter what.

Maybe i am not positive enough, however, things were not really going my way and it seems so hard to look at the bright side.

The decisions might be wrong, to turn down the male dance. It's one and only chance. But i had enough, fustration ignites from the frequent changes of steps and conflicts between him and i was also because of the dance. I will better well not dance it. It's not worth it. It's just like that time when Sihui mades her decisions. I truly understands how she felt.

Maybe i shall taking her path in the upcoming weeks too eh? People are being too insensitive and being too siding one another. There is no even a space for improvement.

We are here to learn, if there isn't any, why should we carry on?

Well instead on one heart, one mind and one soul. Why not now we change something like hail the king. It becames a hierachy right now, having the obedient soilders to listen to commands and fight to the death without knowing the reasons.

Well, i'm fustrated.

4 Days

-Shocked and wokes up-

It felt like woking up from a nightmare and see things which was not turning to what we had expected. Exhaustion or even our methods, we felt not even motivated to carry on.

However if we do think of this, "last time right now, let's do this."
Will it helps? I wonder.

I've been dreaming all this past weeks and i know that i'm in the terrible situation which i would be redeeming for this last few days.

Although it's always the last minute, to get the FMO done is what we actually wants, if we could do it by this few days, i don't think there would be any complaints.

Let us get ourselves up the last time, for 4 days, lets's rock the house!

We the EXCO will ,
impress those who know us,
impact those we are with us,
inspired those who follow us,
we stand as ONE and amidst the challenges.

-Don't blame me if i got it wrong.. I'm sorry!"