It's time

In my personal opinion, blog hopping is good. I get to know everyone's perspectives and their life.

However, from now onwards, the things we mention will be too distant to really know the truth to it. Will it?

We have grown to the stage whereby we are considered "Adult" already. Boy who turns guy and girl who turns lady.

It's time when we got out of that blissful environment where we will fight for our own existent already.

What is your plan?

What is the next step?

Have you thought about it?

I have dilemma over this question too. I had wondered many times and still, many choices were out there waiting for you to make that step.

I hope i could make that one step properly and without looking it back or stopping, move towards a merrier future.

http://sit-club.blogspot.com/2008/09/exco-0708-last-words.html

Maybe this will make you think a little.

Temper

A few days ago, I almost lost my temper again. However, I did not. I don't know why but I know something, I have changed for the better.

It goes like this, there was this money opportunity that I had and I did not do it due to external factor. Thus of course, I felt fustrated and almost vent it on the external factor instead. However, I told myself that, in my whole life, money is not the whole thing. It's a part. I treasured the friendship or so more than money.

Therefore I endured it, swallowed the anger and told myself, there'll be always the next opportunity. We make mistakes but we don't make it again. Once bitten, twice shy.

Things suddenly have a sudden change of course. Instead of having the opportunity flying away, I had known that it actually still on discussion and that made me relieved. I did not go around and yell like a mad man like I once were.

Thank you all who is reading because, you are part of what made me today. :)
Happy new year!

Nonsense!

"I am so in my world right now, i felt that i am so dashing"

"Freak!"
"Self praise is international disgrace!"
"Vain!"
"A**hole!"

Well just let anyone say this. You are you!

Christina Aguilera - I am beautiful

Recently, when i told myself like if wonderful or sort, i always received criticism about it and i wondered to myself. Am i wrong?

I beg to differ about it though. No one rules my life and no one should control it.

One more thing, to have praise of yourself is self fulfillment and THAT! is important. How can you be happy when you are filled with,

"I'm a freak!"
"I'm a pervert!"
"I've no sense of fashion"
"I'm so broke"
"Today wasn't just my day" <- My day then?
"I am so cursed" <- You saw something written black and white?

I don't believe it. I believe in my mind, the one that i controls. Not my master but a good hardworking servant of mine. I'm Lovin' it.

Saya Berhaja Bahasa Melayu

Satu Dua Tiga Empat Lima Enam Tujuh Lapan Sembilan Kosong.

Oh hi there, for you have seen, you guessed it right! I am learning Malay. Bahasa Melayu.
You may be curious why but, i just think that, to learn another language will benefits me in many ways. Therefore i am trying best to master it. :)

With Khalis beside me learning Korean, life makes easier for two students who set out to learn something with our own will. Wish us luck!

Game Plan

Ever heard of anything called the game plan? Perhaps "Project Management" will sound more familiar to you. Anyway, my point is that when you do anything, you must have a plan.

Therefore I've made myself one. Things that i shall do to enrich my everyday life.

1. Mash-up Tutorial - 1 Tutorial / 1 Article
2. Book Reading - 1 Chapter
3. Assessment Book - 1 Unit
4. Manga - 1 Chapter (Optional)

These are some things that I felt that it would help me a lot. How option 4 will help is by relaxing me and energize me. As the saying goes "All works made Peter a dull boy".

P.S You should make one do today! Don't wait! Right now!

Decision Making

In our daily life, we always make big or small decisions regardless where and who we are.

Some decisions may affect people around you.

When it does involve with others, we tend to allow the relationship with that person to take over priority of the actual solution which it may hurt them.

When things are done, it's done. Whether it hurt them or not, if we have the rights and it's right to make the decision, nothing should become a barrier.

Sometime when i saw a person that was affected by my decision. I tend to look down at the floor. As if i did something wrong and i felt guilty. Doesn't know why but, i think from now on, i will hold my head high and face them eye to eye.

I make the decision and therefore i respect it.

How far can i go?

"What is your expectation for the three months here?"

"Uhh.. AMAP (As Much As Possible) =D"

"Hmm.. Alright then. :D"

I was given my first assignment of my IPP and it was not easy. -shiver-
However i am delighted that i am learning something new everyday for the this week.
The networking world seems so vast ever since i step into NCS Pte. Ltd. With so much to learn, i've beginning to feel that the three years in NYP seems so insignificant.

I am sure now with my comrade, Khalis. We will make out something from this three months. If possible, i will wish to stay on until my lovely country ask me to drill myself and become a man and to be able to protect her and also my precious ones.

It will be another fresh week starting soon and i am already excited about it. It doesn't seems that bad to work. It makes my gear moves!

I shall post some knowledge i gain while research for such a long time which i am passionate about. ^_^

I

It is a common sight when people tends to compare.

If I were to choose, I would choose to compare myself to I.

That suffice. It not only push me further, it can bring me to somewhere where I would think it is impossible from the point where I am now.

Definitely I am the strongest opponent of all but I know if I could defeat me. The easy one can just stand aside and allow me to triumph in ease.

Let's battle ourselves. The person in the mirror. That is the devil.

Discipline

"Alright, your school term is starting right. Enjoy your studies in University." I said.
"I am just afraid that i will not be able to cope, not only studies, friends." she said.
"I understand, you definitely can do it." I smiled.
"Certainly, i am confident in my discipline which will aid me in my University life." she smiled.

This incident happens during the gathering with my primary school classmates. Some serves the National Service while some happens to enter University.

Above all, we grown. Not only do our heights, weights and appearance. The inner us grow.
Grown physically and spiritually.

We matured a lot. When i speak to her, that sentence really fascinates me. Such a discipline person unlike me. It do take a lot of effort to be discipline.

The consistency, commitment and hard sweat.

"She is strong, isn't she?" I said.
"Yes, she is strong(independent that is)." Victoria said.
"I bet I am stronger!" I exclaimed.
"Dream on!" Victoria said with a doubt look on her face.
"Explain yourself." I questioned.
"Alright you are able to motivate people very well but when it comes to you! -thumbs down-" Victoria explained.

It made me dumbfounded and kept me thinking.
Yes she is right. I am ill disciplined. I must improve to become better. I must.

You are right

I should not expect everyone to be like what i want.

Eeeling, sorry for the comments yesterday.
For all those who i had offended. Sorry.

Active listening is very important.

We Rule

There's this saying: 5% Luck, 15% Mechanism and 80% Attitude

When we always do things, Attitude are the most vital attribute we must have. It can either make the whole thing goes smoothly or it can turn it into an ugly scene even though you have the luck and the mechanism.

There's people says: This is all fate. Damn it.

I beg to differ. It all comes under our hand. Our life. One ruler. That's you and me.
You plan and you get. There's nothing called fate. It's is just an excuse.

Learn from mistakes. Let's move upwards. The place in Earth which is nearest to heaven.
Let us move together.

Work work!

Alright, School Life is over.

I got to stand up to the "Game of Life" and fight for a place.

No more virtual life i will be in.

Cannot understand?

Try this:

• Do you always at the fan site looking at famous person but do nothing to make yourself one?
• Do you fantasize being rich but play games everyday?
• Do you feel like doing something but end up watching television?
• Do you look at a blank screen and do nothing because you do not know what to do?

If you see yourself in the category, please please please, let us fight against the laziness of ours and create havoc in the Game of Life.

Let us make a difference in everyone's life.

What's the meaning of life?

I've been always asking myself this sentence.

What's the meaning of life.

Right now i cannot get any definite answers..

However, i know i have make drastic change in my life nowadays..

One side you can see the fun in me and another side i am just being a brat doing nothing but play.

I do not know what is happening to me.

I just hope i can quickly keep the pace of the life and move towards a better tomorrow.

Nightmare routine

Once again, the magnificent Steiners appears again.

He once again overwhelmed the once cool guy and destroy the whole situations right again.

Is it good or bad?

Certainly is a mystery.

But the guy does know, that he is filled with regrets for not controlling Steiners.

*Magnificent Steiners is a character in an Anime : "Monster"

Sleep

Sleeps.

I can't sleep no matter how tired i am.

Things always surface up.

Think and think and think.

It's morning.

Time for school.

Journey to ?

Do you remembers the days before you came into OGLs?

Nostalgic isn't it?

I do remember bits of it. When i first came to poly, i had intended to had a fresh start. A fresh start which means that no more nightmares for school days. It happened. Yes, it all began when i first participated in Camp Eagle.

It was an event with many memories, the joys of meeting new people and the sweat we made together. It was good isn't it?

Then we had endured through the FMO days with harsh treatments (With good intentions (somehow)).

Yes we did endured through it, in fact we endured all the events that came by us. A fascinating feat i would say for everyone who understands.

Then comes AGM, commissioning and then the whole new event by EXCOs(including myself).

We started to learn about many many things. Being a leader, a mentor. Responsibility suddenly surge into your blood like you're born with it.

So in order to be in expectations, we have begun to search high and low, for methods which could make our future batch a superior ones. In fact, in the midst of doing it, we did not care about ourselves but only to nurture and nurture and nurture.

Consequences starts to float onto the surface, the pillars starts to succumb instead. -Boom Boom Boom...-

Many thoughts are coming through our head right now (well at least i am), what did i done to deserve this things from happening, what happen to them, why can't we had a peaceful days.

I am puzzled. You may feel strange. In fact for those i'm one of them who kept on finding for the truth behind all those problems i have (pardon for my complacency) and now i think i had come back. Where? Right back from the start.

Now that i had dig so many places all over the place. I do not know which one is the true gold mine. Which is it? Where is it? Why can't i find it?

Suspicion, Silence, Depression and Hatred found inside for who i ever blame was? Myself.

*The more things you know, the more you actually don't know.

-The truth hurts-

Let me recover for whom will become a great friend, a great companion and create a legacy.

Determinations

I am weak.. i can't even stand long hours of work and not even squatting down for just a little while.

Today when i was working, i have often squat down and move things, i had this blood rush to my brain which really cause quite a pain to me every now and then. Hell it is, it just doesn't feel good.

My friend told me its because of fatigue. However, my boss said i'm weak.

Well i think both are correct. So from next week onwards, i shall not touch my computers after 12am.

If your a friend of mine, reading this. Please, remind me if i over used my computer. Thank you.

Little Puppy

Do you feel any hatred in your parents when they just yelled at you when you got home for doing something wrong or just commanded you to do things when you just got home?

I don't know about you, but i feel it.

I will give you a little bit more description.

Betty and Will are a lovely couple with kids at first, after a few strings of events, Betty feels that Will isn't that loving anymore, whenever he was back at home, he would just stare in the screen or just sleep without giving love and care to her and the kids, she felt frustrated.

A few months later, Betty just couldn't take it anymore and just spills everything out to Will when he got back home one day.

She told him that it's like everyday, Will just went to work and whenever he get in contact with foods, he would saves some leftovers in the plastic bag.

Betty and her kids would wait hungrily for Will to return so when he got home, he would gives the leftovers to them.

*The food refers to the love and concern.

Will totally understands what she said. However, Will just started to tell Betty why he does that.

Will refers himself as a puppy. As a puppy, it would always be love by everything besides it, like its parents or owner. However, one day, it got lost, it went through many obstacles.

Having almost being hit by a moving car, passing through thorns, being bullied by bigger dogs, finally, it reach its home.When it got right back in, the owner, instead of consoling it, the owner actually add salts to the wound and beat the hell out of it.

So right now, do you really know how Will's feel? I feel what he feels.

Blood Boiled

Fustration and the frequent changes had made me walk out of that campus without any good memories.

Everyone is trying to make it the best and i know, but we should be more firm on some things. Wouldn't you be fustrated if you receive a order which kept changing? It'll be a neverending of efforts but only a simple achievement. It's not worth it.

Maybe he is right, for not having to say his words correctly, but hell.. i was there trying to concern someone which i receives something like this.. It's like telling your mom the truth and being reprimanded for telling the truth you know? It would be a deep scar no matter what.

Maybe i am not positive enough, however, things were not really going my way and it seems so hard to look at the bright side.

The decisions might be wrong, to turn down the male dance. It's one and only chance. But i had enough, fustration ignites from the frequent changes of steps and conflicts between him and i was also because of the dance. I will better well not dance it. It's not worth it. It's just like that time when Sihui mades her decisions. I truly understands how she felt.

Maybe i shall taking her path in the upcoming weeks too eh? People are being too insensitive and being too siding one another. There is no even a space for improvement.

We are here to learn, if there isn't any, why should we carry on?

Well instead on one heart, one mind and one soul. Why not now we change something like hail the king. It becames a hierachy right now, having the obedient soilders to listen to commands and fight to the death without knowing the reasons.

Well, i'm fustrated.

Nostalgic

It happens when i was ironing my clothes just awhile ago...

The smell made by the iron gave me this nostalgic feeling..

It just brings you back in the days.. when you need to iron your uniforms everyday..
Sometimes, forgets all about it and you rush it through the morning.
With the moon still hung up above, you went to take the ride to school.
Saw many people carrying their as usual heavy bags to school.
Complaining everything about growing up soon..

Do you wish to grow up now?
I wonder..