Zhiyang@Home

2009-04-17T19:10:00.000-07:00

Who will ever know what we do everyday evertime,

Who will ever know what we do, what we done.

They will only see the accessories, bag and stuffs

and determine the love we have between us.

Baby baby please do not falter,

as we knew our love better than others.

We will rise to see the sun rise together

and we shall have breakfast together.

So baby baby do not falter,

as we knew our love better than.. others.

Parental Love

2009-04-11T09:44:00.000-07:00

It was pouring heavily when I was about to step out of the door and go for tuition. I sheltered myself with a mini umbrella and walked to the bus stop. While I was waiting for the bus, I noticed three person were out on the field and they were drenched.

Wondering what they were up to, I observed. There was an adult and two children. They were kicking around a white round ball which I knew, Soccer. They were having much fun. I couldn't help but wonder what's wrong with the "Father" as people nowadays said, "Don't play in the rain! You will fall sick!"

For some reason, I smiled. I'm glad that they have the chance to experience they joy of having fun in the rain. Best of all, with their Father.

You can see them kicking and dribbling the ball happily and taking turn to be the Goalkeeper. While they train, they have fun and they bond so much that you cannot describe.

I'm grateful for that Father. He whom earns money and support the family and takes time to show concerns for the kids and still, break the rules with the kids was splendid. The fatherly he gave was a tremendous effort by him as to know more about their kids.

-Holds a cup and raised it up-

For the Father.

Celebrations of the day!

2009-03-05T06:29:00.000-08:00

Enough of that gibberish of mine. This post will be the real deal.

Life is something that should be joyful. Therefore, I always like to find things to celebrate on my everyday life. That certainly will make my life happier and meaningful.

I will start the ball rolling by thanking Weini, Priscilla, Guang Yun and Tobias today.

Weini had encouraged me to step out of my couch and stop being a potato and start finding a job. The effect was instantaneous. I received calls a few times and they recognized me and said they will help me to take a look out.

Weini was the key for the driven engine of mine. She's the fuel to push to greater distance that I can possibly achieve.

Thank you darling.

Tobias for his utmost support for my business plan. He told me his wonderful experience which can give me loads of insight into how people see the business. He wanted to show support by knowing more out of the products first and I will really hope one day, I can get an optimist like him into my business circle. That will help a lot!

Thank you Tobias.

Priscilla for honestly telling me that she felt potentials in the business. The way that she putted it was encouraging.

Thank you Priscilla

Guang Yun for giving his time to look at my plans too.

Thank you Guang Yun

The Mirror

2009-03-05T06:15:00.000-08:00

The moment I sputtered the words out and you retaliated, time seems to slow down and let me think. Real hard.

To be honest, the words that we said were harsh. I was really hurt when you said those words. Those that I never knew I had with you. However, through hard thinking, I knew what you said was true.

I was never once knowing you that well. We did not do things out of what was expected of us and what we did were also fun but not heartfelt talks.

Everything things go wrong and I will tell myself, he can handle it. I like to talk about you in front of others and when people said something bad, I will defend for you. It is because the respect I had for you.

You had the best mass personal skills I had ever come across and those sparkling eyes with enthusiasm always show me a path to utopia. I never once had a down when I was with you. Those times were the best of my childhood. The time when we lead, we shed tears, we shed blood, and shared the joy when something was done.

Now that things come to this unwanted ending. I have none other to blame other than myself. I was the one who started this kamikaze conversation and I knew I caused this death sentence to our friendship.

Sorry for not knowing you more.
Sorry for making this death sentence.
Sorry for not being a caring friend enough.

Although this should be something to be sorrow of, however I knew that was a really good lesson learnt. You taught me what was really friendship. You taught me what was a real leader is all about. You taught me how to be enthusiastic. You taught me how to be a man and not a wuss.

Thank you for the guidance. Knowledge knows no bound.
Thank you and Goodbye.

It's time

2009-02-14T08:29:00.000-08:00

In my personal opinion, blog hopping is good. I get to know everyone's perspectives and their life.

However, from now onwards, the things we mention will be too distant to really know the truth to it. Will it?

We have grown to the stage whereby we are considered "Adult" already. Boy who turns guy and girl who turns lady.

It's time when we got out of that blissful environment where we will fight for our own existent already.

What is your plan?

What is the next step?

Have you thought about it?

I have dilemma over this question too. I had wondered many times and still, many choices were out there waiting for you to make that step.

I hope i could make that one step properly and without looking it back or stopping, move towards a merrier future.

http://sit-club.blogspot.com/2008/09/exco-0708-last-words.html

Maybe this will make you think a little.

How to gauge a good bus ride

2009-01-29T07:41:00.001-08:00

Rule #1

To enjoy a chapter of wisdom from a book with no dizziness accompanied with.

-END-

Temper

2009-01-23T22:45:00.000-08:00

A few days ago, I almost lost my temper again. However, I did not. I don't know why but I know something, I have changed for the better.

It goes like this, there was this money opportunity that I had and I did not do it due to external factor. Thus of course, I felt fustrated and almost vent it on the external factor instead. However, I told myself that, in my whole life, money is not the whole thing. It's a part. I treasured the friendship or so more than money.

Therefore I endured it, swallowed the anger and told myself, there'll be always the next opportunity. We make mistakes but we don't make it again. Once bitten, twice shy.

Things suddenly have a sudden change of course. Instead of having the opportunity flying away, I had known that it actually still on discussion and that made me relieved. I did not go around and yell like a mad man like I once were.

Thank you all who is reading because, you are part of what made me today. :)
Happy new year!

Religion

2009-01-22T22:39:00.000-08:00

I have a couple of books these few months. The origins of the books were from Europe. I've came upon many extracts of famous people such as Theodore Roosevelt, Abraham Lincoln, Martin Luther King and of course extracts from the bible.

I've then learn about some sentences in the bible which makes me ponder. Then I come to a conclusion.

Bible is powerful.

The teachings inside contain strong and powerful words that men should abide. Words of wisdom towards attitude, behaviors to people and life itself.

Although I'm not a believer, I believe in what i see.

Education

2009-01-21T22:27:00.000-08:00

"Hey.. you know. My son is going to go further studies"
"He said he wants to go New Zealand"
-Silence..-
"I think I have to rob the bank"

Let's take it as a joke but in a serious manner. Many parents are worrying about their children's future and that's a fact. It may be normal to be not able to provide a optimum level of education to their child but I think it's wrong.

Let's head back to the past and rethink about how we want ourselves to be. Have you ever thought of something different other than the typical courses given by a specific university?

Although I don't have such specific experience, I know these feelings. I know how they felt, they felt they will become the next big thing. However something was blocking their way, a wall which was so high and huge that only years of demolish could tore it down.

Then there goes generation and to the next. It was a vicious cycle which tooks people life like having a sweet wrapper which is useless after opening it and threw not even to its rightful place (bin).

If you are one of the victim of this nemesis, why not let us take a step back. Look at that 'bloody' wall and said. "I'm going to tear you down before my child grows up."

"I will tear you down so that my child can go to the place they wants to go. The promise land."

Martin Luther King Jr
His speech gave me a good insight
"I have a dream"

Life is a series of unseen tales

2009-01-19T03:39:00.000-08:00

I happened to fly into the sky and build castles while waiting for the bus that heads home.

It was blazing hot and it shines directly towards the bus seat so I stood behind the shelter before I got melted. I started to read(Save time). While reading and waiting, I kept tilting my head to scan whether the bus was arriving. To my dismay, it's an empty road.

Eventually I finished a chapter while waiting and kept my book since I got a little headache after reading with a background of bright contrast (with the sun ray).

I got a little impatience but kept my nerves down and went behind a big shelter with seats. I didn't moved in earlier because I was hoping for a quick wait. It seems it didn't get my way.

After I moved into it and get myself comfortable, here it was, the bus that I waited for a chapter.

Of course, I got in and I wondered. Life's just like that, a series of unseen tales. Whenever you expect to come, it don't.

So for the next time, I shall not 'look forward' for the bus but to wait for something to arrive. I don't know what but wait.

Maybe you will appear? Haha!

P.S It applies to anxiety too. There's no point for worrying tomorrow but to do your best today.

Cheers!

When somebody

2009-01-18T03:32:00.000-08:00

Browse through my playlist and play this song.

When Somebody Loves You Back - Teddy Pendergrass

It's so good lovin' somebody
And that somebody loves you back

To be loved and be loved in return
It's the only thing that my heart desires
Just appreciate the little things I do
Oh, you're the one who's got me inspired
Keep on liftin', liftin' me higher

So good, good lovin' somebody
And that somebody loves you back
It's so good needin' somebody
And that somebody needs you back

We can build a world of love, a life of joy
Make our goal each other's happiness
I will do for you anything that I can
Oh, everyday I wanna do a little more
Do a little more, just a little bit more

It's so good, good lovin' somebody
And that somebody loves you back and that's a fact
It's so good wantin' somebody
And that somebody wants you back

Said it's so good

Oh...ho...

To be loved and be loved in return
It's the only thing that my heart desires
Just appreciate the little things I do
Oh, you're the one who's got me inspired
Keep on liftin', liftin' me higher

So good lovin' somebody
And that somebody loves you back and that's a fact
It's so good needin' somebody
And that somebody needs you back

Said now 70/30
Now 60/40
Talkin' 'bout a 5-/50 love

Said it's so good lovin' somebody
And that somebody loves you back, yeah

Said now 70/30
Now 60/40
Talkin' 'bout a 5-/50 love, yeah

It's so good, good lovin' somebody
And that somebody loves you back, yeah
It's so good, good

I'm so glad that there's you
I've experienced over and over when
I've given 80% and she's given 20%
Now she's givin' 70% and I'm givin' 30
But you just don't know how it feels to have somebody
That you can share your life
Somebody that you don't mind talkin' to
Somebody that you don't mind goin' the middle of the road
I know a lot of guys today they wish they had somebody just like you
I don't know when the last time I told you
But girl, you make me so very happy
I think we've got something that a lot of people don't seem to have
Talkin' 'bout a 50/50 love, yeah

This song had inspired me to be a loving person truly. To give then you get. Somehow or rather, everyone is talking about that but show difficulty in acting on it. However I would like to give it a try and hope everyone loves somebody and then somebody loves you back!

Nonsense!

2009-01-14T06:57:00.000-08:00

"I am so in my world right now, i felt that i am so dashing"

"Freak!"
"Self praise is international disgrace!"
"Vain!"
"A**hole!"

Well just let anyone say this. You are you!

Christina Aguilera - I am beautiful

Recently, when i told myself like if wonderful or sort, i always received criticism about it and i wondered to myself. Am i wrong?

I beg to differ about it though. No one rules my life and no one should control it.

One more thing, to have praise of yourself is self fulfillment and THAT! is important. How can you be happy when you are filled with,

"I'm a freak!"
"I'm a pervert!"
"I've no sense of fashion"
"I'm so broke"
"Today wasn't just my day" <- My day then?
"I am so cursed" <- You saw something written black and white?

I don't believe it. I believe in my mind, the one that i controls. Not my master but a good hardworking servant of mine. I'm Lovin' it.

Saya Berhaja Bahasa Melayu

2008-12-28T20:25:00.001-08:00

Satu Dua Tiga Empat Lima Enam Tujuh Lapan Sembilan Kosong.

Oh hi there, for you have seen, you guessed it right! I am learning Malay. Bahasa Melayu.
You may be curious why but, i just think that, to learn another language will benefits me in many ways. Therefore i am trying best to master it. :)

With Khalis beside me learning Korean, life makes easier for two students who set out to learn something with our own will. Wish us luck!

5 things to be a friend

2008-12-21T23:41:00.001-08:00

Listen
Find common ground
Be available
Humor
Tell the hard truth

When i saw the list of 5. Point No. 5 is what we really don't usually do. Even though we always says we were friends, we are not.

If we don't point out our friends weakness, we don't move and if we don't move, there's no point living.

I know it's hard to open the mouth to say something crude. However, if you really treat that person as a precious one, you must. Even if you risk it, at least they know you care.

This is how you find your best friend.

"Your best friend is whom brings out the best within you." - Henry Ford

Life Is All About SHIT

2008-12-17T01:25:00.000-08:00

Sincerity Honesty Integrity Talk less, listen more

Yes, life is all about a mere 4 word, SHIT.

Respect for Bangladeshi

2008-12-15T17:45:00.000-08:00

Imagine yourself stuck at the roadside building roads during peak hours of the day. In addition, those harmful gases emit from the busy cars and you had breathed them all into your precious body.

Imagine yourself hung up high around 10th storey with only the main frame of the building. No walls, no bricks just some huge metal bar combined together where you felt the wind might blew you off if it's a little stronger. When you looked down, you saw tiny little yellow hats moving around and everything seems so small way high above.

Imagine yourself stuck in the drain having to destroy the side and to rebuild it. Using your bare hands, you reach into the drain to pick up trash or to remove debris along the way.

Can you imagine yourself to do something so "crude"? Well, in fact. That's what our fellow Bangladeshi have been doing. The government had to offshore them here because we can't do it because of our ever improving standard of living. However the building cannot stop there. Therefore this is where they came in. All the way from their hometown wishing to come here to have a good start but to know what they do were really ironic since some of them were degrees holder.

That's why we shouldn't look them with the "smelly", "Bangladeshi", "outcast" and "inhuman" way. We should treat them as equal, as human.

Although sometime bad news were linked to them, we shouldn't condemned them all. It's just a wolf in a flock of cattle.

Let's make it a beautiful loving country.

Game Plan

2008-12-12T01:05:00.000-08:00

Ever heard of anything called the game plan? Perhaps "Project Management" will sound more familiar to you. Anyway, my point is that when you do anything, you must have a plan.

Therefore I've made myself one. Things that i shall do to enrich my everyday life.

Mash-up Tutorial - 1 Tutorial / 1 Article
Book Reading - 1 Chapter
Assessment Book - 1 Unit
Manga - 1 Chapter (Optional)

These are some things that I felt that it would help me a lot. How option 4 will help is by relaxing me and energize me. As the saying goes "All works made Peter a dull boy".

P.S You should make one do today! Don't wait! Right now!

Decision Making

2008-12-10T21:18:00.000-08:00

In our daily life, we always make big or small decisions regardless where and who we are.

Some decisions may affect people around you.

When it does involve with others, we tend to allow the relationship with that person to take over priority of the actual solution which it may hurt them.

When things are done, it's done. Whether it hurt them or not, if we have the rights and it's right to make the decision, nothing should become a barrier.

Sometime when i saw a person that was affected by my decision. I tend to look down at the floor. As if i did something wrong and i felt guilty. Doesn't know why but, i think from now on, i will hold my head high and face them eye to eye.

I make the decision and therefore i respect it.

When small things play a part

2008-12-10T01:28:00.001-08:00

Imagine that you have to draw something like this picture above from scratch and to add in IP addresses and names for each of them accurately. This was what i did for the whole day. Every little IP addresses and names connected up with the corect routers and switches.

Although things are tough, i am glad i got the chance to do this. It's suitable for someone with the perfection personality which will need you to design the diagrams correctly and pleasant for the eyes. I have to becareful with every little changes i made.

Like the title says, "When small things plays a part". Even a space would make the thing seems so unprofessional. It's like life, when you have to boil water, iron the clothes, dry the clothes etc.. When it seems so unsignificant, it's impact is big.

Therefore, start the small things now! Make it part of you and things will seem smooth sailing ahead with clear blue sky.

Self Improve

2008-12-09T22:44:00.000-08:00

Even though i had just entered the world of the adults. The atmosphere of excellence and competition have already engulfed me.

I have gotten several tasks recently. This is what my boss told me, "In the working life, actually it's very very easy. It's a matter whether you want to do it or not. In order for you to impress your boss, you have to excel in your work. Always ask yourself whether this is the best it can be done. Improve and impress."

These words have surface on my mind again and again. In order to survive you have to improve. Maybe Yong Liang had already knew this and excelled. Although we are far away now, it's not too late to start. I will catch up to him and show him that, i can be the "helpdesk" too.

P.S You watch out ah Yong Liang!

Don't Judge the Book by its Cover

2008-12-09T01:04:00.000-08:00

Just some minutes ago, Khalis just went off site with his supervisor, Mr. T although it was told that he's going at 11am, to 1pm and just some minutes ago.

I felt upset for him. He did not bring his laptop because of the off site and thus did not do anything productive due to the lack of equipment. He just patiently waited and fell asleep eventually. I can understand how he felt at that time, not felt like doing anything but just go.

Eventually Mr. T came and brought him off. Before that happens, he actually assist me on my project on various protocols definitions. His lecture was remarkable. It really taught me alot by just a short meeting with him. Thank you Mr. T.

He is kind and Khalis should be having enjoyable time with him "working". Therefore, like the title says, don't judge the book by its cover!

Network Diagram 1, 2 & 3

2008-11-30T18:13:00.000-08:00

For the whole year 3, i did not know about drawing a network diagram, it consists of so many different layers.

It have 3 different layers to sum up with

-Physical
-Data Link
-Network

Physical
It conprises of cable labelings and list of equipments. Mainly use to identify all hardwares and type of cables.

Data Link
Diagram which shows the VLAN specification and the linking of hardwares

Network
This typically shows how data will flow through the network with naming the IP address with the different network together. The process such as OSPF or RIP is not stated.

This is what my knowledge yet but will improvise in due date. Hope it helps you understand more of networking.

16th Month

2008-11-28T08:49:00.000-08:00

It may seem time flies like no people business, but indeed we went through thick and thin for these past 16 months. I just want you to know that you have already been a part of me where separation is not an option. Happy 16th months darling. (=

A special song which i want to dedicate to you. Although it seems out of topic but hey, having a good mental health can do many things.

Always Look On The Bright Side -

Some things in life are bad

They can really make you mad

Other things just make you swear and curse.

When you're chewing on life's gristle

Don't grumble, give a whistle

And this'll help things turn out for the best...

And...always look on the bright side of life...

Always look on the light side of life...

If life seems jolly rotten

There's something you've forgotten

And that's to laugh and smile and dance and sing.

When you're feeling in the dumps

Don't be silly chumps

Just purse your lips and whistle - that's the thing.

And...always look on the bright side of life...

Always look on the light side of life...

For life is quite absurd

And death's the final word

You must always face the curtain with a bow.

Forget about your sin - give the audience a grin

Enjoy it - it's your last chance anyhow.

So always look on the bright side of death

Just before you draw your terminal breath

Life's a piece of shit

When you look at it

Life's a laugh and death's a joke, it's true.

You'll see it's all a showKeep 'em laughing as you go

Just remember that the last laugh is on you.

And always look on the bright side of life...

Always look on the right side of life...

(Come on guys, cheer up!)

Always look on the bright side of life...

(Worse things happen at sea, you know.)

Always look on the bright side of life...

(I mean - what have you got to lose?)

(You know, you come from nothing - you're going back to nothing.

What have you lost? Nothing!)

Always look on the right side of life...

P.S http://nicknorah.com.sg “Movie opening 11th Dec!”

How far can i go?

2008-11-28T01:21:00.000-08:00

"What is your expectation for the three months here?"

"Uhh.. AMAP (As Much As Possible) =D"

"Hmm.. Alright then. :D"

I was given my first assignment of my IPP and it was not easy. -shiver-
However i am delighted that i am learning something new everyday for the this week.
The networking world seems so vast ever since i step into NCS Pte. Ltd. With so much to learn, i've beginning to feel that the three years in NYP seems so insignificant.

I am sure now with my comrade, Khalis. We will make out something from this three months. If possible, i will wish to stay on until my lovely country ask me to drill myself and become a man and to be able to protect her and also my precious ones.

It will be another fresh week starting soon and i am already excited about it. It doesn't seems that bad to work. It makes my gear moves!

I shall post some knowledge i gain while research for such a long time which i am passionate about. ^_^

More than words

2008-11-27T04:38:00.000-08:00

Have you wondered sometimes when you quarreled with someone, they said something unrelated to the problem but the about the tone you used?

I came to understand, it means alot. By having irregular rhythm with low and high pitches and speed of talking, it all has different meanings.

Anger
Disbelief
Boredom
Sadness
Affection
Satisfaction

It would take a Degree period of time to truly explain what i am going to say. However, i think that to know the person's nature of speaking and to determine the message clearly is not easy but it will help alot.

Therefore, i hope this little guide will allow you to have better communication with others and misunderstandings will decrease. (:

P.S Things to note if you do not want to give the wrong information.

Your body language when speaking (Is it contradicting itself?)
Your rhythm of speech (To understand will let you know what kind of tone you are giving out)
Do not be monotone, it is difficult for the other party to analyze what is going on

IPP Day 3

2008-11-26T14:00:00.000-08:00

I want to share something that i learn here.

If you were in a company which uses a proxy server to access internet and think that you cannot access messenger? You are wrong!

Open messenger
Click on option -> preferences
Connection, you will see that the proxy already stated there.
Just fill in the username and password box to enter msn.

Cheers

How to improve standing board jump

2008-11-03T08:18:00.000-08:00

After some napfa tests and trainings. I discovered one thing.

It doesn't matter if i'm slow or what just after so many sessions then i discoverd. Most important is that i share. :)

With you.

Let us take a look at the muscles.

Standing board jump (SBJ) requires you to bend your knees and with a swinging motion, you take flight.

Which muscles does it stresses on?

It stress most on Quadriceps, followed by the calves.

I discover that by bending my knees and feels which part being stretched.

Therefore in order for you to improve in SBJ, improve :

Quadriceps
Calves
Jumping Motion (Tuck Jump)

Gung Ho!

2008-10-29T08:10:00.001-07:00

An all out attack up front!

This is what i going to do. A full force advancement to the next stage of my life...
Have you though of it yet?

Our Future

2008-10-19T09:12:00.001-07:00

How time flies, we have only 3 to 4 months left before we really step out to the real world. Dilemma starts to run wild in our thoughts again similar to the day we got out from O'levels.

University or to work?

That's the primary concern we do have now. We have to make a choice soon. University are closing their applications.

This was what i always told Weini. "Never regret whatever you do."
Therefore, bon voyage my fellow NYPians. I love you all and move forward!

Victory

2008-10-06T02:04:00.000-07:00

The day before when I was having a ride on the bus, TVmobile was showing the Olympics volleyball matches. China VS Switzerland.

Although it seems like a typical match and on a rainy day, i almost teared.

It just happen when China got a point from the Swiss and that victory look upon their face. It was such a beautiful expression.

I was shocked about it. The droplets almost formed.
I do know why, i missed the feeling of victory.

The last time i felt it was ages ago.
I am just a useless bum where it just floats anywhere you go without achieving anything.
I want to change.
The Sight, Touch and Hear of Victory.
Let it ring days and nights in my ears. The sweet sweet melody of achievement.

Smokers VS Non-Smokers

2008-09-30T08:00:00.000-07:00

Recently, when I did my NAPFA, I found that the attendance was getting lower and lower. Whatever the issues it may be, what matters was that it didn't affect those who went.

Anyway, from my observation, I came to see that some was really unfit even though they weren't obese or have any physical difficulties. Maybe due to the fact that they did not exercise regularly or their minds were not ready yet.

However, I can't think of any reasons how could non-smokers lose out to smokers. Even as in the fact that smokers got three times much faster to catch out of breathe, I still see smokers among the top list.

I admit that I am smoking but trying my very best not to. I told myself that I am going to surpass myself. For the gold, for the glory, for my seniors.

https://www.yousendit.com/download/bVlEa3ZNNnlTSUFLSkE9PQ

Check it out yourself. The severe damage that made to my body

That's why if non-smokers are to commit themselves to 85% of the effort. They will be improving 56.67% more than smokers. Time is running out but I am 100% sure that if you are willing to shoot for the moon, you can at least hit the stars. Get a silver. 2 months free from army. Isn't that great?

Live your own

2008-09-24T08:29:00.000-07:00

When you felt upset.
When you felt lonely.
When you felt useless.
When you felt hopeless.
When you felt devastated.

Who are the ones there for you every minute of the pain and the sufferings?
If there wasn't any, i beg you to move forward.
There would be no longer any point to keep holding onto them when they don't care.

Live fully for yourself. Not for the sake of someone else.
Compare only of yourself. Not to someone who is better than you.
Only to that point we can achieve what we call "Achievements".
Something which you surpasses yourself and you feel ultimately proud of it.

That's what I call life. Where things spice up within your own mighty hands.
Those can brings happiness but can also brings darkness.
Choose yourself.
Move on and find another flock and fly with them.

I cherish everyone of you.
I am moving on. Let's move on. :)

Day 19

2008-09-19T06:11:00.000-07:00

Nothing much happened. We had submitted our 2nd draft. Hope that it will be better than our previous. Not that i expect much, i knew we would have errors but hope it is not as bad as the first.

P.S Gym is close for renovation till end of November. Take note.

P.S.S We should really look around who are those who cherish you. Do not take things for granted. Love it, treasure it. Some things don't come back the second time. Don't made this mistake. It doesn't worth it.

Day 13

2008-09-17T18:56:00.000-07:00

It was a fruitful day. (: I had managed to blog up what I have learnt through a blog which could communicate with our supervisors easily. (:

My 2nd project link are able to share. Here you go.

www.nextgenerationnetworkp3.wordpress.com

Then because of the energetic Michelle, Joycelyn and Peilin. They created our very own L633's blog. www.fyp-633.blogspot.com ---> Take a look. It is insane. @_@

Trusting each other is an important asset. It will prevent suspense and backstabbing in a great deal. Therefore people other than the lion personality. I encourage you to speak up your thoughts.

You may be afraid things will go haywire. However I believe that if you care that person, likewise the other party will care for you too. All of us take risks but we do not want to lose, we just take educated risks which aims for success. Therefore let us say our thoughts out and share. You may have gain something which you always want after the talk. (: Good day to you.

I

2008-09-16T09:19:00.000-07:00

It is a common sight when people tends to compare.

If I were to choose, I would choose to compare myself to I.

That suffice. It not only push me further, it can bring me to somewhere where I would think it is impossible from the point where I am now.

Definitely I am the strongest opponent of all but I know if I could defeat me. The easy one can just stand aside and allow me to triumph in ease.

Let's battle ourselves. The person in the mirror. That is the devil.

Cherish

2008-09-16T09:14:00.000-07:00

As you can see, I have changed my MSN nick.

I will elaborate a little here with a simple calculation.

1 year = 365 days
1 day = 24 hours
1 hour = 60 minutes
1 minute = 60 seconds

This is the time we have. People always says, how much time do we have? We have no time to waste! Get your butt off and go!

Well I get this reason to back me up. Each and everytime we thought of the negative's, we would eventually spend hours thinking of it unconsciously.

However ironically, when it comes to positive's, we spend only minutes.

If we are going to compare the ratio. It is the devil's win.

Why should we allow the devil to win? We must quickly bring ourselves to the point of optimism that overcome the distraction the devil gives.

Stand firm and think positive. Let's stop whining and cherish the moments.

Day 12

2008-09-16T09:10:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Khalis! Hope you have a great time celebrating with us. :)

Today I had failed myself. I did not do any work at all and just plainly fool around for the whole day.

After that I went over to NAPFA training. I was grateful, Eeling and Jeffery despite on all distractions too, focused on the one goal that our seniors have gave us. A gold award no matter what. I was really grateful when I see each of us giving our best and excel in order to achieve better results. I love it!

P.S I think everyone should know by now. My room is functioning in a thumbprint system. Good luck Zhiyang! Haha.

Day 11

2008-09-16T09:08:00.000-07:00

Finally, there was one day. That I am satisfied with myself.

Why?

Despite of all distractions, I forced myself to do work and have done more than what I did before. I am satisfied.

The discipline in order to do this was overwhelming hard. I have to be consistent and excel.
Go go go!

Day 10

2008-09-14T18:56:00.000-07:00

Today was a disaster. Practically did nothing except playing of games.

Tsk tsk. Have to control myself!! -slap slap- Discipline!

One that a lion lack. -sigh-

One thing that's good. It's Friday.

Hope I could get myself to work next week start!

Lion

2008-09-11T07:19:00.000-07:00

This was a picture created by Charlene.

It was our pride. A fine piece indeed.

It just fits our character that much. That piercing eye which kills just by glaring. The silent, swift and objective-in-mind character swoop down on it without any sign and devour the prize with the sense of victory.

Day 9

2008-09-11T07:09:00.001-07:00

Training progress

Laps - 10

With? - Han Leng

Pull up - 1 set of 7, 1 set of 6, 1 set of 4

The run today with HL was easy. We had a slow run and managed to finish 10 rounds without losing our breathe. What was new today, was the 3 sets of pull up HL introduced to me. The workout had been inflicting pain to me already. I am not good enough for 11 straight yet. I have to train more.

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I think this is the end of my carefree life. First, I am now being locked in a bird cage with so many eyes looking who are the more noisy one who doesn't know how to 'sing' and get condemned immediately.

Let us stop beating around the bush. I was caught by Mr. Kelvin Ng for having a morning run today and was being reprimanded. I think my name is well spread among the coffee table of the lecturers by now.

Today we have managed to finish the task which were suppose to hand up tomorrow. Therefore we had nothing to do today. We were practially doing nothing. Everyone was doing their own thing and not trying to advance on. I was also went in dazed after all those noises and my own weakness of being distracted. I am defeated once again.

I only want to be champion. Fight on.

Day 8

2008-09-10T08:21:00.000-07:00

Training progress

NIL

I was not feeling well today due to the "bloatness". Therefore I didn't make any attempt today. However I will start tomorrow onwards again.

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It was a strenous day today. We started to have things to do and everyone was doing their best. Development of report and reading up on information for our next project. It may seems like it was easy but the information given to us were massive. Imagine 50+ pages full of words. 5-6 set of those! I read a few sentences and fall asleep.

By the way, update of the warning issue. I am officially marked. My lecturer has been informed of my action. My adventure just begun, I will cherish this carefree time for now. Wish me luck guys!

Day 7

2008-09-10T08:17:00.000-07:00

I got myself a MC. Therefore I didn't go to school.

I got constipation somewhole and I kept burping and farting. There were too much "wind" inside me and it can't stop even now!

I got these medicines which will aid bowel movement and hope I can recover soon.

One good news from the doctor was that I am able to exercise per normal.

Got to start running again after two days of rest!

Discipline

2008-09-09T01:53:00.000-07:00

"Alright, your school term is starting right. Enjoy your studies in University." I said.
"I am just afraid that i will not be able to cope, not only studies, friends." she said.
"I understand, you definitely can do it." I smiled.
"Certainly, i am confident in my discipline which will aid me in my University life." she smiled.

This incident happens during the gathering with my primary school classmates. Some serves the National Service while some happens to enter University.

Above all, we grown. Not only do our heights, weights and appearance. The inner us grow.
Grown physically and spiritually.

We matured a lot. When i speak to her, that sentence really fascinates me. Such a discipline person unlike me. It do take a lot of effort to be discipline.

The consistency, commitment and hard sweat.

"She is strong, isn't she?" I said.
"Yes, she is strong(independent that is)." Victoria said.
"I bet I am stronger!" I exclaimed.
"Dream on!" Victoria said with a doubt look on her face.
"Explain yourself." I questioned.
"Alright you are able to motivate people very well but when it comes to you! -thumbs down-" Victoria explained.

It made me dumbfounded and kept me thinking.
Yes she is right. I am ill disciplined. I must improve to become better. I must.

Day 6

2008-09-08T08:24:00.000-07:00

Training process

Laps - 10

Pull up - Nil

Timing - Nil

With? - Nil

Due to some miscommunications, no one joined me. However, I will take it as a challenge. No matter what happens unless of rain, I will try my best to run from Monday to Friday (Tuesday Napfa training). Therefore, I will not contact anyone to ask if they are running already. I will move on.

When I ran today, I found out that my efforts pay off. I no longer felt that I am dragging my legs and I ran in a faster pace without knowing. I just knew that when I went back to the room at the same time as the previous time. Perhaps it was because I talked to friends which stalled times. I am happy with the result currently.

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Let us talked about the bad things happen today first. Well i actually got another warning for playing games in lab and another was when the TO actually took things into his hands by controlling my desktop and close the window personally. Wasn't it bad? Yet another thing was that I didn't did much today. I was slacking around and I am really disgusted about it. I really want to change it. *Shrug*

Let us talked about the good things then! *Eager* *Think think think* Ah! I read a book related to my project. I actually read up to 10 pages! Even though it was not much, I took it as a great start since I understood what that function actually meant for. Wasn't it great? Hohoho.

If we were to compare the good and the bad. It is 1 versus 2. The bad wins. This cannot go on. I will discipline myself and to maintain the margin to 3:1 ratio definitely! *Droplets started to form on the forehead*

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It was raining heavily before I got home. When I reached my doorstep, I suddenly got a nostalgic feeling of my past. That raining morning which I have to get up and go for school. That smell of the past was lingering even now. This was what i felt though. If that memory of mine was something which I regretted, I would rather not.

Draft of Last Words

2008-09-05T08:25:00.000-07:00

The last words are a pack of words which are so difficult to write!

Try this. You need to describe the love between you and the club and summarize a whole year's stuffs into words.

The thoughts of it made my head swirl again.

Anyway, I did it anyway. I wasted half day writing these and when I took a look on senior's last words. I felt that I did it wrongly. That is why i am posting it here. Since I do not want to waste 975 words of LOVE into the recycle bin!

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If I would have to choose the year where my life is the most enjoyable, I would choose 2007. The year when I joined Camp Eagle and all the way till EXCO. The tears we shed and the joy we shared were everlasting. So vivid the memory is that I thought it has been around just days ago.

I clearly remember the first day of FMO when the bubbly face Jewelry first break the ice between us and make friend with me. The day when we started the journey towards excellence.

Although Seniors have not made life easy for us, I thanked them for making me “tahan” throughout and really trained us to become the true Ironman. As the saying goes, “When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.”

The days where there were no worries and just enjoyed fully. We went eating almost every night. Waiting for our beloved ICs to get their things done and guide us to the next step. James, Weini, Guang Yun, Jewelry, Tommy, Joyce, Priscilla and Regina. The night after 6pm was always what we desired the most every day. The time we interact and the time we play so hard that eventually we felt so glued to NYP instead our home. That’s when I know the truth of the slogan of NYP and that time. “Where I belong”

After we “graduated”, we split into the different events. Xtreme Venture, Voiceout, Bandzout and Phat Nite. I remember I was appointed ICs for XV and I messed it up.

Though it might seems doubtful, the lousy IC wants to thank Erny for that wonderful commitment at that point of time that without you, there would be a mess to my Logistics stuff. The one who always stays around until late night just to organize it properly.

Eeling the one who was my communicator between the ICs and comm. I thanked you for aiding me to the success of XV.

Tobias, Regina and Jade for their precious time to come down to make our one and only Penguin mascot.

Despite of having repeated post, Richard did his best and created amazing games for XV which pleases all participants. I love it personally too. Thank you all.

Voiceout was the time when there were two monks were born. Guang Yun and I. Such a straightforward who agrees on cutting botak with me. It was a fantastic period of time when we were being shoot together and being touch on the head together. It was unforgettable.

Voiceout allows me to enjoy the full flow of a “theatre” like atmosphere and I like it. Concerts and stuffs interest me and I am pleased that they allowed me to help them in the comm. Raymond’s legend story was born at that point of time who he single handedly handles all cue sheets on hand and ran VO so smooth that Senior Chuan Lim was speechless.

The melody adds up on the perfect English that brings out the X factor of the singer was none other than Yong Liang who took up the position to be the “Emcee for tonight”

Tommy and Weini who make the effort to create the fabulous props which were created by Kenneth and Charlene.

Props making day can be said to be the most enjoyable day throughout the event period. The time where bonding and working takes place all together.

Bandzout. The event which went in turmoil was being supported by many sub comm. Such as Tommy, James, Weini, Priscilla, Guang Yun, Yong Liang and etc..

The publications legend story was set when the large backdrop was designed. The astonishment look on all the faces were forgiven because the creator of all these knew that we made an impact on them. That’s what art is all about.

Mai shines on BO too. That energetic and optimistic mind of her makes everyone feels comfortable around her. To do props making without suddenly turns so dull.

Everyone faces challenges and Jolyn and Mai went out of their comfort zone and went to search for the supplier.

Lucinda managed to keep all sub comm. Made them the CC and coordinates everyone to the best. Her patience and calm tone allows conversation to start easily and no one were complaining about it.

Despite all challenges, Bandzout went on successfully and you can see the relieved in everyone’s face that it went on well and glad that the efforts paid off “fair” enough.

The amazing booth design to the priceless backdrop, it can said that the legend lies with the members of the pub who is none other than Daniel, Charlene and Kenneth (Creators).

Jafni did a great job by keeping the participants at bay and made BO a success. Guang Yun, as a sub comm. Helped in another way. He was appointed to be the Emcee. His quick thinking allows him to react fast and keeps the audiences “alive”.

Phat Nite which was run by the two committed persons, Jeffery and Nana, with the assistance of Guang Yun, Priscilla, Aidah, Ruby, Alyssa, Jewelry and Chee Wei. With this pool of talents, Phat Nite was ran with ease. The F&B was fantastic with the unique drinks created and Publication decorated the place and made the place so similar to the real clubbing place.

When we became the EXCOs, we had succeeded on doing Sports Champ, Xmas Querade and Camp Euphoric. Despite all the rows we had, we stick together. That shows the relation between the club and us. It’s inseparable. We were reluctant to pass down at first, the feeling of leaving the room which is considers as a second home to us.

EXCOs, you are like a kin to me. Regardless what happens next, I hope that we can still meet up, share our troubles and suffer together. “One for all, all for one”

Day 5

2008-09-05T07:58:00.000-07:00

Training process

Laps - Nil

Pull up - Nil

Timing - Nil

With? - Nil

Training was cancelled this morning due to drizzle.

Today was a meaningful day. I did not slack around too much and had used the time quite efficiently.

Since today was Friday and was the deadline for the "Last Words". I had squeezed all the juices out of my brain and it took quite some time. From the time I reached, I started to write it until 3pm with many pauses in between of course.

We went for project meeting today with our supervisors. It was a brief presentation on all our ideas. I am please to say that some ideas of ours were being complimented. However, our supervisors asked us to continue the research until Tuesday or Wednesday. In the meantime, we would be taking a glimpse on our second project which we will be touching on after the current.

The ideas that we mentioned, some were practical and some were wild. I mean wild such as it is something which is not in the market or even not exists. Therefore supervisors did not really agree on it. I could understand them. It is going to be a competition with ideas which can really be implemented. Therefore Alvin started to research on the wild ideas and hope that it can be implemented. Maybe the idea will not go through the competition but under entrepreneurship. It is worth a try!

We must always dream big in order to get it. Even you don't hit what you expect, you get slightly lower but you still exceeded the original baseline you set! There is a saying goes like this "Shoot for the moon! Even if you don't hit it, you got the stars!"

Let us shoot the moon step by step. Then we will aim for the planet nearest to us. Until we reach the next galaxy. That's the ironmen dream.

Day 4

2008-09-04T07:42:00.000-07:00

Training progress

Laps - 8

Pull Up(Assisted) - 7

Timing - Nil

With? - Guang Yun, Alvin

A positive sign is that my project mate had joined us for the run this morning. He is an enthusiasts in fitness and we are glad that he had joined us. He taught us a few things and indeed it was useful. Like the way to hold the pull up, to prevent the skins from dropping off and allow us to grip more comfortably.

Just received a news is that another friend of mine, Han Leng will be joining us tomorrow around 830am. I am very happy about it. The more the merrier.

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It was another day with the same task we got on the very first day. Actually when we share problems with our friends, we tend to benefits it. Friends would help to find a solution when you are stucked somewhere. Guang Yun did a great help to Alvin and I today. He told us to find ideas under the complains section under Singapore Forums. Indeed, we found some great ideas from there! Thanks Guang Yun!

After which, we did nothing else but surf the net, walk around and do nothing much of a use. Oh, I used some of the time to mark my student's paper. It indeed was a help since i don't have to do it at home and sacrifices by rest.

After that, I just couldn't stand the boredom and went to find Richard and Chee Wei to have a tea break. Well, we have a chat on some stuffs and heard that Richard was mastering Adobe Premier while there is nothing to do since his supervisor is not around.

The thought of that passion, commitment and effort struck my so hard that I felt useless suddenly. While my friends are fighting the battle outside and strive for excellence like Regina who is pursuing her dreams by attending singing lessons and dances. I was doing nothing but look at comics and play games. I am nothing compared to them.

I have to be discipline. I must learn.

-Determined-

*P.S This is my 100th posts.

Day 3

2008-09-03T08:33:00.000-07:00

The dream of getting all MDs to get gold is still possible.

It only lies on the determination on everyone now.

If we are keen, we can definetely do it.

So what i do is that i have to keep my words and make myself fit and let everyone acknowledge that sense.

Every morning will be having a run and some 5 basics practises and to train myself up.

I am glad that Guang Yun and James have agreed to join me in this journey towards gold.

Eventually, this enthusiasm will soon spread like disease and allow everyone to know the "can-do" spirit. To relish this dream is hard but i know i have to walk the difficult path so as to open new things and achieve happiness. I will risk towards it and move on.

It wasn't a good day at all too for day 3.

I have been slacking around almost all day round.

The agenda : Think of 5 ideas. (I only got 3 within the 6pm time and one more after 6pm)

It wasn't what i am capable of. I know i can do better I must remind myself now and then that I must work hard. Not only for me but those who went for their IPP. They cannot enjoy the school life as much as us and we cannot fail them on this area. It's unforgivable. Cherish and give the fullest. That's what I should do.

Got reprimanded today for playing games in lab and rather to feel guilty, I felt nothing at all. It must be because of my past, that ignorance and no discipline guy who defies all law. It'll be a challenge with peer pressure as not many of them achieve the discipline state. Many like me, succumb to defeat easily and I shall face it and resist it. I shall do better.

Day 2

2008-09-02T08:01:00.000-07:00

It was the "official" first day of FYP and Jewelry had made an effort to gather us together before we go school.

It turns out well, everyone came early and head to the rooms. However, despite the fact that we were the early birds, it turns out that we have actually late for lessons. The reason was because the computer time was much faster than the actual school clock. Everyone was late. Learned a lesson.

Luckily mine was just 3 minutes earlier so it will not be much of a problem to me.

I would say that today was a bad day because i had slack throughout it. We watched movie, read comics and magazines and even played games. Its horrible.

That's not worse, we gave our lecturer a look at the research we made on first day, it turns out that it's not practical enough or creative enough to be work on. Everyone was in dismay. Started to slack and it turn out to be a wasted day.

However, at 4:30pm, we had our NAPFA training. I think that's what made the day. In order to allow us to pass NAPFA easily, SIT and SA had conducted the Tuesday weekly training to pump us up. Everyone appear to enjoy it. Its fascinating to see everyone's laughter and happy moments again. I will treasure it. Moreover I am intending to work my way up in order to obtain a gold in NAPFA. This can be a challenge to me and a promise to seniors and encourage everyone to get a gold. That will be my greatest achievement in my life and I will work on it. I must. For the honour.

Right after that, i went straight for my tuition. Although it was tiring, i have to. It's the life i need to right now. There will be no one to control me or whatsoever. I have to be independent. I have to persevere on.

Day 1

2008-08-31T21:46:00.001-07:00

Alright, today is the day where all of us will be staying in the room for 3 months.
As for those BMTC's, 1.5 months.

Throughout those 1.5 hours of briefing, we were enjoying ourselves, trying to cuddle ourselves and enjoy the warmth from our dear ex-excos. One regret of mine is that i didn't really treasure the time well this year. However, the clock cannot possibly turns back so we will have to move forward and make sure this time round there is no regrets anymore.

This is one decision i made, i will blog everyday, the life of my time to my fellow MDs and let you know that i'm fine and hope you guys strive too!

From now till one month later, i will be participating in the HP Total Care competitions whereby we will aim for the top($15,000). I assume i will be more busy then the others, i will not disappoint and disgrace the 28's and aim for the top.

Update done. Have a nice day. :)

NDP'08

2008-08-09T02:09:00.001-07:00

I do realize something on the 8th of August.

Although it is a festive in Singapore, there will be a bunch with mix feelings.
With the hatred and sadness towards the Government, they cursed and swear about the life in Singapore.

Though i did not know what happen to them or what really happened, i just feel that we should smile over it and be glad that we had a place called home.

"How is life over Taiwan compared to Singapore?"
"Singapore is better, the security wise is way way way better."

This statement was made by a 13 year old Taiwanese which came to Singapore to study. I happen to be his tuition teacher.

It was a joy to hear it. The place called home is eventually becoming the home of another person from another country.

Feel bliss when there is nothing to post on the newspaper.(incident, tragic, terrorism)
Your home, Singapore.
I love you.

Quarrel

2008-08-08T19:55:00.000-07:00

Each time things ended up with quarrels does not bring a good ending.

Other then in relationship which quarrel can be recovered to become better.

None really works.

Had experienced two quarrels in the last day two days and it really brings out the ugly mood to everyone even though it is over.

People brood over it and when your mood is down, bad things starts to appear like a stealth assasin waiting in the shadows for the chance to strike you down.

You are right

2008-08-08T19:53:00.000-07:00

I should not expect everyone to be like what i want.

Eeeling, sorry for the comments yesterday.
For all those who i had offended. Sorry.

Active listening is very important.

Love

2008-08-05T11:17:00.000-07:00

There's once i thought upon this topic of what is love.

I assume,

Love is when you forgive that person even if she pissed you.
Love is when even if she let you wait for a very long time you would not get angry
Love is when she is down, you get her up.
Love is when, even in daydream, you thought of her.
Love is when even if she doesn't reply your sms, you wouldn't mind because you know she is busy.
Love is when she loves you and you loves her.

That is love, I assume.

Hardships

2008-08-03T08:39:00.000-07:00

Human go through hardships for one purpose.

Strengthen ourselves and move on.

Do not allow any hardships to overwhelm you.

That's the most difficult to handle isn't it? It takes effort to make it.

The attitude. 80%

One of it will be the discipline of one self.

The discipline to work towards the game of life.

It's the only game we're playing.

The game where there is so much that you do not know where to start, unlike virtual games.

Discipline. Move on.

We Rule

2008-08-01T10:45:00.000-07:00

There's this saying: 5% Luck, 15% Mechanism and 80% Attitude

When we always do things, Attitude are the most vital attribute we must have. It can either make the whole thing goes smoothly or it can turn it into an ugly scene even though you have the luck and the mechanism.

There's people says: This is all fate. Damn it.

I beg to differ. It all comes under our hand. Our life. One ruler. That's you and me.
You plan and you get. There's nothing called fate. It's is just an excuse.

Learn from mistakes. Let's move upwards. The place in Earth which is nearest to heaven.
Let us move together.

Work work!

2008-07-30T23:40:00.001-07:00

Alright, School Life is over.

I got to stand up to the "Game of Life" and fight for a place.

No more virtual life i will be in.

Cannot understand?

Try this:

Do you always at the fan site looking at famous person but do nothing to make yourself one?
Do you fantasize being rich but play games everyday?
Do you feel like doing something but end up watching television?
Do you look at a blank screen and do nothing because you do not know what to do?

If you see yourself in the category, please please please, let us fight against the laziness of ours and create havoc in the Game of Life.

Let us make a difference in everyone's life.

Distractions

2008-07-17T08:37:00.000-07:00

There is many distractions in life.

Like my Dad, when he started to drive the cab again, LTA had decided to set more gantry's around CBD which greatly reduces customer. This is life and i think it will be a matter of mindset we see it.

Either we fight for the rights and the ways or we just stay behind the shadows and see the stars get brighter and the rich being richer.

What's the meaning of life?

2008-07-16T07:03:00.000-07:00

I've been always asking myself this sentence.

What's the meaning of life.

Right now i cannot get any definite answers..

However, i know i have make drastic change in my life nowadays..

One side you can see the fun in me and another side i am just being a brat doing nothing but play.

I do not know what is happening to me.

I just hope i can quickly keep the pace of the life and move towards a better tomorrow.

Dramas under the roof

2008-05-13T00:00:00.000-07:00

This is one drama which is the best you would ever get. Which is when you are involve in it.

This is one drama which you choose what type of personality you will have.

This is one drama where you could determine whether you are rich or poor.

This is one drama which you could be negative or positive.

This is one drama which you could have more sceneries that you can ever have.

This is one drama which will allows you to be happy or sad.

However,

There is one drama which you can never do anything about.

A drama about your parents.

A drama which you can foresee disasters, calamities.

A drama which you can see that you would need to see them in the hospital which you cannot do anything to prevents.

A drama which needs you to take care of them with their health deteriorating.

A drama which you see them self-destruct.

Pathetic huh?

God bless.

Love is..

2008-05-11T02:00:00.000-07:00

Love is weird.
Love is miraculous.
Love is temporary.
Love is everlasting.
Love is heart aching.
Love is blissful.
Love is..

We have went through all these months, without any good days actually. However we encourage one another and try to go through it with a smile.

However, it is easier to say than done. Always meeting but troubles. You cannot really smile it out even if you want to.

Everyone need a break during all this hurdles. I did not realize until yesterday.

I had break her heart. Telling her that she was irresponsible. I truly understand what she meant right now.

I did not feel good the whole day. Heart ache and always missing. How i wish i could just look at you and say i am sorry and just accompany you for a day.

Even though now and then i am the one who always told her off. Instead of blaming, we got a strange but strong mutual understanding which we always forgive each other just a few minutes after a quarrel.

We are always learning one another. Always trying to give the best to the another one. I now knew why we always need a wallpaper of our love ones. Because it work. It brightens your day.

Knowing that your not fighting alone. An Angel is always looking out for you and always knew. Appreciate you. I just want to tell you. I really love you this much! Thanks for being with me for so long! Enduring those pains and those precious tears that went down that lovely cheeks. I love you.

The Truth

2008-05-10T09:17:00.000-07:00

Minutes by minutes, day by day, year by year, decade by decade and centuries by centuries.

Some things in life do not really change. Such as those vicious cycle that makes the rich more richer and poor gets poorer. However i realize that it is in this way because it balance.

The reason is because, the rich always knew what to do and the poor always neglected it even though they knew.

Let us take academics as an example.

Sometimes you should hear your friends or classmates talking about some project group right? Such as the nerds always sticks together and deserted those who are not so good.

I think i know why. It is because they want to make success while choosing the right person, their dreams will not be far. Of course, on the other hand, the not so good would struggle because now and then they would wait until the very last minute before they started to do assignments.

I would like to share with you guys, a quote from the famous motivator. Oprah Winfrey.

"Surround yourself only with people who are going to lift you higher"

Who Moved My Cheese?

2008-05-05T04:30:00.000-07:00

"Who Moved My Cheese?" is a non-fiction that i had read lately.

By looking at the title it looks corny.

Basically, it is a book which is talking about changes in life. It teaches us how to see changes, adapt to it and goes on with life. Yep, a very good book.

It's a book which you can finish within an hour.

Although it's a non-fiction, it is written in a kid's storybook alike manners which allows easy reading and understanding.

I believe that the library will have this book.

Please read it. (:

What's your limit?

2008-04-29T01:33:00.000-07:00

There are many things in life that you want. Such as money, reputation and so on.

But tell me, whenever you get those things, isn't there something in exchange instead?

Money exchanges friendship
Reputation exchanges freedom

There is one thing that we could do to solve this. To limit ourselves.

Like i would limit myself from traveling?
Limit myself not to eat snacks?

Just lets take myself to the BMTC trip an example.

I will limit myself not to go as its expensive.
I will limit myself even though there is a sponsor.

I don't know if others knows about this but, there is nothing there to do. Only project.
The only thing you guys thinks about is a trip to China, a chance to play. Well come on, wake up.
You have no money to play there. Your GPA will not increase significantly. So what are you trying to prove?

Having a more pretty Resume?

In exchange for a trip, you exchange increase in GPA, exchange chance of earning more money while working and exchange of your own time for your relaxation.

Well, if your not capable of going there financially, don't go.

I will not say anything out, just that please wake up from your "paradise"

Nightmare routine

2008-04-23T22:59:00.000-07:00

Once again, the magnificent Steiners appears again.

He once again overwhelmed the once cool guy and destroy the whole situations right again.

Is it good or bad?

Certainly is a mystery.

But the guy does know, that he is filled with regrets for not controlling Steiners.

*Magnificent Steiners is a character in an Anime : "Monster"

Sleep

2008-04-23T08:18:00.000-07:00

Sleeps.

I can't sleep no matter how tired i am.

Things always surface up.

Think and think and think.

It's morning.

Time for school.

Journey to ?

2008-04-22T07:56:00.000-07:00

Do you remembers the days before you came into OGLs?

Nostalgic isn't it?

I do remember bits of it. When i first came to poly, i had intended to had a fresh start. A fresh start which means that no more nightmares for school days. It happened. Yes, it all began when i first participated in Camp Eagle.

It was an event with many memories, the joys of meeting new people and the sweat we made together. It was good isn't it?

Then we had endured through the FMO days with harsh treatments (With good intentions (somehow)).

Yes we did endured through it, in fact we endured all the events that came by us. A fascinating feat i would say for everyone who understands.

Then comes AGM, commissioning and then the whole new event by EXCOs(including myself).

We started to learn about many many things. Being a leader, a mentor. Responsibility suddenly surge into your blood like you're born with it.

So in order to be in expectations, we have begun to search high and low, for methods which could make our future batch a superior ones. In fact, in the midst of doing it, we did not care about ourselves but only to nurture and nurture and nurture.

Consequences starts to float onto the surface, the pillars starts to succumb instead. -Boom Boom Boom...-

Many thoughts are coming through our head right now (well at least i am), what did i done to deserve this things from happening, what happen to them, why can't we had a peaceful days.

I am puzzled. You may feel strange. In fact for those i'm one of them who kept on finding for the truth behind all those problems i have (pardon for my complacency) and now i think i had come back. Where? Right back from the start.

Now that i had dig so many places all over the place. I do not know which one is the true gold mine. Which is it? Where is it? Why can't i find it?

Suspicion, Silence, Depression and Hatred found inside for who i ever blame was? Myself.

*The more things you know, the more you actually don't know.

-The truth hurts-

Let me recover for whom will become a great friend, a great companion and create a legacy.

Social Etiquette

2008-04-21T07:56:00.001-07:00

Its just plain respect when someone greeted you or bid farewell and greet back isn't it?

Its just plain stupid.
Yes you had a bad day, everyone knows. Its all over that pretty face of yours.
But i just want to tell you something, whether your bad mood or not, life still goes on, so, just greet back and say goodbye, at least.

Well as what Jade says today to Eeling which i think its perfectly true.

"You said that yourself ah, nobody wants to know actually."

Although its said in a kidding way, if it you think in a normal basis. It's really true. It does apply to normal day, nobody really wants to know what happen to you.

Shut up, stop whining and get a life. A book title by Larry Winget. Pretty cool.

"The truth hurts"

-Larry Winget

"Humans unhappiness comes from not facing reality squarely, exactly as it is"

-Buddha

Determinations

2008-04-20T09:36:00.000-07:00

I am weak.. i can't even stand long hours of work and not even squatting down for just a little while.

Today when i was working, i have often squat down and move things, i had this blood rush to my brain which really cause quite a pain to me every now and then. Hell it is, it just doesn't feel good.

My friend told me its because of fatigue. However, my boss said i'm weak.

Well i think both are correct. So from next week onwards, i shall not touch my computers after 12am.

If your a friend of mine, reading this. Please, remind me if i over used my computer. Thank you.

Little Puppy

2008-04-20T09:23:00.000-07:00

Do you feel any hatred in your parents when they just yelled at you when you got home for doing something wrong or just commanded you to do things when you just got home?

I don't know about you, but i feel it.

I will give you a little bit more description.

Betty and Will are a lovely couple with kids at first, after a few strings of events, Betty feels that Will isn't that loving anymore, whenever he was back at home, he would just stare in the screen or just sleep without giving love and care to her and the kids, she felt frustrated.

A few months later, Betty just couldn't take it anymore and just spills everything out to Will when he got back home one day.

She told him that it's like everyday, Will just went to work and whenever he get in contact with foods, he would saves some leftovers in the plastic bag.

Betty and her kids would wait hungrily for Will to return so when he got home, he would gives the leftovers to them.

*The food refers to the love and concern.

Will totally understands what she said. However, Will just started to tell Betty why he does that.

Will refers himself as a puppy. As a puppy, it would always be love by everything besides it, like its parents or owner. However, one day, it got lost, it went through many obstacles.

Having almost being hit by a moving car, passing through thorns, being bullied by bigger dogs, finally, it reach its home.When it got right back in, the owner, instead of consoling it, the owner actually add salts to the wound and beat the hell out of it.

So right now, do you really know how Will's feel? I feel what he feels.

Lovely Sandwiches

2008-04-18T09:01:00.000-07:00

-Waiting eagerly-

What am i waiting for? Of course I'm waiting for my lovely sandwiches! From my beloved and it takes time to make it alright.

Yesterday we went to shop in the shopping markets and bought the ingredients together, and today she had made it not only for me, but to many others too!

There is some who made some comments over it. Its a feedback yeah so darling don't you be sad or what! We improves by making failures alright. (:

Don't be crippled by the feedbacks! Made more! For me at least. =p

Maybe you guys will say what's the big fuss over a mere sandwiches, try getting someone you love to do it, i think you would be drown by sugar. Trust me.

Emotions

2008-04-14T06:36:00.000-07:00

When some scenarios came into your life and hit it with such a big impact, it will go deep into the emotional you, the inner self. The inner self would tend to compare this scenarios to the one currently its having and see what's wrong about it, whether it can be improve or not.

This certainly is a good thing, however when the inner self gets so obsess about trying to improve that particular scenario, it became a nuisance. It will turn out that the event was moving so smoothly but because of the obsession of the inner self, without knowing, destroying the event with knowing that they had too, the same event going.

That's the emotions. Either you control it and make it a guidance or you let it run wild and destroy the path and allow you to experience what someone had went through before you.

I would like to thank that person who had taught me this theory, well, it isn't anyone fault, it is the emotions which affects so much about you that unknowingly you do things more than what you had expected it.

Humans are sensitive, try to keep that sense from a distance. As the saying goes " There is a thin line..."

It's Time

2008-04-09T08:44:00.000-07:00

Things has turned ugly tonight.

Questions all over the air.

No convincing answers to any of it.

Everyone was frustrated.

"If there is a scenario like this, who is in the fault?" I asked my father.

"The leader. Why? He had allow him to manipulate him totally."

"Ask him who actually is the leader, if the another one is more like one, he should just give his place up."

"At the end of the day, ask why does he being manipulated first and analyze the problem."

This is the answer from a experienced leader who had gone through this kind of situation.

Dilemma

2008-04-06T08:12:00.000-07:00

Crap it out or just shut it up. This is one dilemma which everyone in the world has it. Be it youth or adults. It's the communication which brings forward to the next level but a dangerous step to take.

It's just like playing a MMORPG, with a superb weapon on hand, however in order to bring it to the next level, you need some materials and some luck. If else fails, the weapon will be gone forever.

The weapon would well be consider the relationship between humans. If you successfully merge it, you will get a better understanding with each other. If fails, you will get nothing and relationship with you and him will turns ugly.

Conclusion, bring forward or just give it up?

Take risks or cautious?

Blood Boiled

2008-04-05T06:29:00.000-07:00

Fustration and the frequent changes had made me walk out of that campus without any good memories.

Everyone is trying to make it the best and i know, but we should be more firm on some things. Wouldn't you be fustrated if you receive a order which kept changing? It'll be a neverending of efforts but only a simple achievement. It's not worth it.

Maybe he is right, for not having to say his words correctly, but hell.. i was there trying to concern someone which i receives something like this.. It's like telling your mom the truth and being reprimanded for telling the truth you know? It would be a deep scar no matter what.

Maybe i am not positive enough, however, things were not really going my way and it seems so hard to look at the bright side.

The decisions might be wrong, to turn down the male dance. It's one and only chance. But i had enough, fustration ignites from the frequent changes of steps and conflicts between him and i was also because of the dance. I will better well not dance it. It's not worth it. It's just like that time when Sihui mades her decisions. I truly understands how she felt.

Maybe i shall taking her path in the upcoming weeks too eh? People are being too insensitive and being too siding one another. There is no even a space for improvement.

We are here to learn, if there isn't any, why should we carry on?

Well instead on one heart, one mind and one soul. Why not now we change something like hail the king. It becames a hierachy right now, having the obedient soilders to listen to commands and fight to the death without knowing the reasons.

Well, i'm fustrated.

4 Days

2008-04-04T08:36:00.000-07:00

-Shocked and wokes up-

It felt like woking up from a nightmare and see things which was not turning to what we had expected. Exhaustion or even our methods, we felt not even motivated to carry on.

However if we do think of this, "last time right now, let's do this."
Will it helps? I wonder.

I've been dreaming all this past weeks and i know that i'm in the terrible situation which i would be redeeming for this last few days.

Although it's always the last minute, to get the FMO done is what we actually wants, if we could do it by this few days, i don't think there would be any complaints.

Let us get ourselves up the last time, for 4 days, lets's rock the house!

We the EXCO will ,
impress those who know us,
impact those we are with us,
inspired those who follow us,
we stand as ONE and amidst the challenges.

-Don't blame me if i got it wrong.. I'm sorry!"

Sports?

2008-02-28T07:57:00.000-08:00

It's been weeks and weeks that we hadn't been doing any sports.
Right now, i'll be making a poll up till Sunday to decide whether to have sports or not.

Cheers!

Why Worry?

2008-02-13T09:07:00.001-08:00

Today, i am going to share with you a poem which i finds it interesting with you before i go to sleep.

The title is called: Why Worry?

Why Worry?

There are only two things to worry about,

Either you are sick or you are well.

If you are well, then there is nothing to worry about.

But if you are sick, there are only two things to worry about,

Either you get well or you die.

If you get well, then there is nothing to worry about.

But if you die, there are only two things to worry about,

Either you go heaven or you go hell.

If you go heaven, then there is nothing to worry about.

But if you go hell,

you'll be so busy shaking hands with old friends,

you won't have time to worry! =)

The Facts

2008-02-09T09:16:00.000-08:00

I will now, make it briefly, about what is going on the accident day itself which cause two of my brother's life.

What i am going to say here is very different from the newspaper.
Please believe me what i said here, it will be the absolute truth and i hope you guys out there who knows this will spread the words out and justify my friends who's alive right now.

Tien Boon got his license that day and Mervin and David wants to celebrate for him. They asked Han Leng and Jia Chee to join them.

They went for a prata session around that area and after that, they yearn for a spin. This time, Tien Boon was reluctant to go on, while everyone was in the car, Tien Boon told David to off the car.

Previous case when they was in Han Leng's car, it skidded even on corners, Tien Boon knows that this is not the time for such a heavy ride.

Both Mervin and David can't resist the spin and ignores Tien Boon. Jia Chee(Car Owner) who was the driver and Han Leng the front seat left off with their seat belts.

It happens to quickly and Tien Boon was the first to arrive.
He had this bad experience and doubled off with this stupid news report.
I hope to justify him.
Kind souls out there, justify for him too.

He's one of the few that saw my friend died, without able to give a hand to them..
Just imagine it, you will feel the pain.

Cya

2008-02-01T05:31:00.000-08:00

"It's better they die now."

"They will be in heaven."

"If they were to die normally, they would probably be in hell."

"They're better off dying now, at least they have company.."

"But how are they going to meet? One catholic and the other buddhist. Hmm.."

"I hope it's the same heaven!"

At lease i make someone laughed out of these 'story'. The feelings isn't getting off quickly.. all came quick and off fast.

They were laughing this moment and they are in the coffin at the next moment.

Totally absurd.

Well, good luck in the next life bro!

See you in after life. Take care..

At least, because of you two, our class is getting to meet 3 more days in the next year..

29/1, 30/1 and 7th month.

Don't really come and find us this days.. we'll be freak out! Find us with your normal face at least..heh. assh***.

Oh a little hints for you two, i told boon to buy 2 dog to name you guys over. hahaha! revenge of lucky! .. heh. :`)

Bon Voyage

2008-01-31T19:19:00.000-08:00

Miss your crankiness
Miss your gayness
Miss your fatness
Miss your cleavage
Miss your laughter
Miss your sarcasm with tien boon
Miss your gayness with kar kit
Miss your wildness

Well practically, i still can't really accept this news. To us..
Well come back if you can.

David, you still going for genting, don't let them wait for you.
Mervin, your girlfriend hates this stunt you put..

We still got our class chalet..
Come back.

It's a matter of time.

2008-01-30T05:42:00.000-08:00

Thanks for the concern everyone..

Right now, me and my classmates just need time alone for ourselves..

This can say is our lowest point in our life.. try losing 2 friends at a go..

But i will bounce right back up.

So.. let us deal this ourselves and umm.. don't ask anything.

Mervin & FeiFei

2008-01-29T12:32:00.000-08:00

Though you two have been rascals for this 2 years i've known you guys..

It's been my pleasure.. i thank you 2 for adding colours to my gay life.

I love you guys..

I just didn't know you will leave like this.. fuck.. grow up fucker.

Only know how to play... pcb

Hurtful

2008-01-29T00:57:00.000-08:00

Today it's our special 6th month and yet we can't spend much time with each other.

She has project presentation tomorrow and i have 2 tests to take tomorrow.

Well, it's quite a havoc during our lunchtime today.
She has so much trouble which i really can feel her pain.

I need to reflect :

I'm too hot tempered as always..
Not listening..
Vulagrities..
Listen to people who spoke ill of someone..

I need to change!

If i don't have the time to reflect on myself.. who will does it for me?

"You must love yourself first before you can love others."

Aims

2008-01-28T08:15:00.000-08:00

Just a few weeks back, i have think of 3 possible resoltutions for myself to achieve during this year. However, recently, a book made me realised that, having just goals like this, couldn't let you acheives much.

That's why now and then, i'll repeatedly say what will i wants to do.
To let me achieves it. To moving towards a good life.

Study hard enough to pass all exams
Have a good bbq session with 4e5
Love Weini deeply
Orientation, a rock on event
Earn money quick through internet marketing

Upgrades

2008-01-28T08:13:00.001-08:00

I've decided to take away the Cbox.

No why just that, i just need you to read it.

No reviews needed.

Thank you for reading.

Weini Loves Me :)

2008-01-27T08:39:00.000-08:00

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:)

This was the dare by her and i will post it! XD

Nostalgic

2008-01-24T07:26:00.000-08:00

It happens when i was ironing my clothes just awhile ago...

The smell made by the iron gave me this nostalgic feeling..

It just brings you back in the days.. when you need to iron your uniforms everyday..
Sometimes, forgets all about it and you rush it through the morning.
With the moon still hung up above, you went to take the ride to school.
Saw many people carrying their as usual heavy bags to school.
Complaining everything about growing up soon..

Do you wish to grow up now?
I wonder..

Steam

2008-01-23T09:04:00.000-08:00

"sssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss"

Next time when you guys here this sound made by me.
Just to let you know, i'm calming down.

As you all know, i'm hot-tempered.
So i'm trying to be like a train when stopping, it cool its' engine and this "sssss" sound.. heh.

Innovative? I know.

Rubbish? Get lost.

Death Week

2008-01-22T04:24:00.001-08:00

"Sigh.. it's really been a death week."

That's what my girl recently said. I would bet that everyone will have this feelings right now. It's already week 15 now and we are rushing for projects and exams. However, this just rings the end of the school term and holidays are coming.

We are not going to have any are we? LOL.
EXCOs are busy people. We will be organising the Camp Eagle and then the Freshman Orientation during the holidays. So we can say we do not have any. =p

EXCO! Better give me my cca marks! =p

In LOVE

2008-01-19T09:12:00.000-08:00

Can sand made out art masterpiece? Think twice eh? See Ilana Yahav do the style.
You will love it.

Enjoy these of one her many masterpiece.

Cool? Want more?

http://www.sandfantasy.com/

To my dearest,

Let's do it together. Let's bear this together. Cry it out, will be better. Stay with her right now. She needs you most. :) Let's pull this through together. Will be always with you.

Your dearest

Busy

2008-01-16T07:09:00.000-08:00

Wont be having much time to blog for these few weeks due to projects..

Yeah, that's on the surface. I'm playing in school while Victoria was doing it.

Like #%, i can't concentrate.

Zhiyang! Wake up man.

She's going down with you if you don't buck up!

2nd & 3rd Day OH

2008-01-12T08:35:00.000-08:00

I would say that it will be a fine event after all. Everything was according to plan. Just that the crowd weren't there because of the rain and the publicity of the school. Yeah.. Nice job EXCO!

Praise by various kinds of people is indeed a feat! We should be proud of it.

Well of course, conflicts happens and of course, it's solved. This is the kind of communication that is good. We can solve it at least. :)

Great job guys..

But like what our VP said...

"Let's do well in academic too."

=D Let's beat this.

My 51st Posts!

2008-01-12T08:14:00.000-08:00

Sorry that i kind of lie to you.

Quite tired of those nonsense they gave..

That lie of cooking.

Yeah..

Can't really lie to you,

That's why i went. :)

Sorry.

Specialization

2008-01-10T07:32:00.000-08:00

Today the results of the specialization course is out. Let us review what my choices are,

1st -Logistic
2nd -Networking
3rd -Programming

Results: Networking

First reaction from me was "WTF!". It really startled me. Not wanting to boast, a GPA of 3 cannot get into the courses that he/she wants is totally unacceptable! Furthermore, heard news that they chose by allowing the lower GPAs student to get what they wanted first then cater to people like me.

However i will not be appealing because i felt that, whatever given to you, just do it. Yeah so i am going to do it! Logistic's module can be learn anywhere too. So i am going to strive in Networking! Hehs. Wait for me Distinction! Mwahahahahahha!

Crackdown

2008-01-10T07:24:00.000-08:00

Heard stories between cracks within the family. I still don't really understands the situation yet so i will not say much about.

Heard some says it's about the trust. Rumors are killers really, it will kills anyone who gots involved in it, it spares no one! However, not siding both sides, both have wrongs.

The person who is being pin-pointed, should try building the trust. Yeah. First starts by committing yourself fully into the commitee. Your presence is very IMPORTANT if your not aware of it. It will be something like, "Oh, ******** not here again.. Sigh..". There is a effect even if you don't admit it!

The person who is being shroud by rumors and the person's action deepened into it, should give the person a chance! It's unfair if you sees it negatively even before you work with someone! Yeah!

I think thats about it. Hope it helps! Cya!

OH: 1st Day

2008-01-10T07:19:00.000-08:00

Before i babbling away with irrelevant stuffs, let me have a run through with the first day of Open House NYP.

For my side, it was a complete failure. From Aidah's view, the games side was a success and that is good. Mine just a little customers and many things have been going haywire. Tomorrow will be a new start of the new system. I would hope i will see results from it.

Personally, i'm too tired today. I kept slacking off now and then, playing Counter - Strike all the time. Hmm.. well i think thats because there's isn't any crowd to take over too! Let's see if the new system tomorrow will works better. :)

Keep up the good job family.

Critical Time

2008-01-08T08:58:00.000-08:00

"Zhiyang! You never go for that test?"
"Hm? Got ah. Why lei?"
"Oh.. it states here you got a F for it.."
"Oh.. alright.."

Shrug, i hate it man. I got an F for networking! SHITS!! My GPA now is at stake. I just throw my 10% of that module just like that. I'm anxious right now. I'm going to pass that next test! No matter what! A "A" if i can! Grr. ROAAR! This is WAR!

Training

2008-01-08T08:27:00.000-08:00

Well well, i've done fifty push-ups today! With the

15
15
15
5

Basis within fifteen minutes. The muscles are all tensed up right now. Feeling strengthless. I felt so weak. I can only do one pull-up. I need to improve. ALOT.

Hopefully, i can continue this basis and increase more day by day and reach one day that i can do ten pull-ups. I will be so happy. :)